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JANUARY 23, 2008 (happy happy happy)

i was like " OH mehn this is soo lame.. never felt like this before ive met someone... shit!! dunno if i cant stand with my feelings with him.. shit!! hes the only one who makes me laugh!! he left earlier and i hate it!! all i can say is that im sooo into him.. grrrrr..... i really hope i can get through this and move on with my life!! shit!! im soo fuckin inlove with him... i never expected myself to be going through this in my wildest dreams.. me who is to blamed for what is happening I HAD FUN MEETING HIM IN SUCH A SHORT TIME..



---AND NOW---- (reminiscin')



It was sooo funny! its been 3 months now ive met someone.. he sooo wonderful!!

It started in a bar a friend introduced him.. we started talking, hold hands.. dance with me like a stripper (hahhaa).. he pulled me onto a chair, we kissed and both laugh.. who could blame us??!! ahhaha..

It was the most special kiss of my life!! it cause me to act crazy!! (just rememberin)...

Had our BORACAY getaway!! time well spend.. we had sooo much fun!! cant forget our beach moments together.. and the "kisses".. hahaha



I always had a story about him.. but this past few months.. hasnt mention him at all.. maybe because we live far from each other and we just spent 5 days together... but oh soo!! wonderful days!!

April 15.. he told me.. he'll be dating someone.. oh shit! thats fine.. my reaction was.. "ok what can i do" and laugh! the wholetime.. i admit.. was hurt a lil but was happy for him.. and will be friends forever!! yey! atleast.. were FRIENDS....

Listen, we all know how to use the remote control to change the channels on the T.V. if we see something we dont like, no big deal-- we just flip channesl. When some people see those negative experiences on their minds'"screens", instead of quickly changing channels, they pulln up a chair and get some popcorn, as though theyre going to watch a good movie. They willingly allow themselves to relive all those hurts and pains. Then they wonder why they are depressed or discouraged. Learn to change the channel. Dont let your mind or emotions drag you down into despair. Instead, dwell on the good things GOD has done in your life....

All of us face dissapointments from time to time. No matter how good a person you are, sooner or later, something (somebody) will shake your faith to its foundation. It maybe something simple whatever it is, that dissapointment possess the potential to wreck your faith..

when i did something wrong, i dont hold on to it.. i beat myself.. hahhahaa... about it, admit it, and seeks forgiveness and move on...
The disspointments that disturb us the most, are usually those caused by other people. People who have been hurt by others are missing out on their new beginnings because they keep re-opening old wounds. But no matter what we have gone through, no matter how unfair it was, or how dissapointed we were, we release it and let it go..

So gian quit wasting your time trying to figure out something that you cant change.. You cant unscramble eggs. Whats done is done.. Let the past be past and go on.....
Dont carry around all the hurt and pain. When GOD allows one door to close, he will open another door for you, revealing something bigger and better..
We cant do anything whats gone, but you can do a great deal about what remains....

party!!! party!!! party!!! like a rockstar.. still...